There is something I’ve been doing this entire deployment that I did for the very last time yesterday.
Sitting on my couch reading, watching TV, surfing the web. Random car door shuts loudly. Sounds like it’s right in my driveway. Immediately check my phone. Why haven’t I heard from him yet today? Jump up. Open the door to make sure it’s not “them”. It’s company for my neighbors. Begin breathing again.
Getting that knock on the door was an excruciating fear for me. For any military spouse. I won’t miss having these fears.